Ma-RR-ied

see my previous post ? yup, im in love immediately just by listening to the first lyric, and its so simple yet its so beautiful. I cant help it, my tears rolling down, and its my first time listened to a song that's so beautiful, not sad and made me cried. This song is making me wanna get married even moooore. AAAAAAA and i saw the video cover is about wedding, and uuuu even making me cried. You know because of my relationship before and always ended up me Broken Hearted, i'm like giving up for whole those Boyfriemd things, i even ask my mother to setting me up, oke it just me being so pathetic, but really im so desperate ended up broken heart and cry. Someday i just want to meet my soulmate, and get married and live happily ever after. I'm done with all those kind of relationship that just looking for pleasure and for those who just seek for pleasure, just stay away from me, and i mean it really! and thank you for those who love me. and still love me :")
I don't know why i love those guys who hurted me and i cant love them that love me? i don't know its fair i guess i hurt them by not loving them and they hurt me by..... you know right ? Life is like mirror you do something bad to a person and someday you will get bad things in return and i hate to call it KARMA, i don't know why. But the best thing you could do to the people who hurt you is wishing the the best, wishing them to be happy and forgive them, if you can't forgive, how you can really forget? me, personally hate to know the fact that i still running around in circle of the past. im like in labyrin i couldnt find my way to out unless i forgive, so i forgive them and i have my way out, and hopefully i can find someone that pick me up in the end of the labyrin.
Hey, im no longer a pleasure seeker like i used to be, if im still that kind of person, i wouldn't writing about all of this. i'll be playing with my boyfriend since its saturday night. Im basically single but i don't know im starting to enjoy it, because you know im looking for serious relationship, though im only 19 and it still 3 months again hahaa
Because of my environment at my college im like growing up faster haha my friends are litteraly got engaged and 3 of them are married, and listening to The wedding song by Angus & Julia Stone its like aaaarrrrgghhhhhhhhh. So hopefully i can found my soulmate, Hey my future husband what are you doing now ? Im writting about you know :)

The Wedding Song by Angus & Julia Stone

We are gonna build a life together
You and I for ever and ever
And we'll, we'll make babies on the beach
Under the stardust
And I'll hear your voice come through the door
A thousand times, maybe more
And I'll smile inside to know you're mine
Completely

Do you know how lovely you are?
In the starlight, in the starlight of my heart
Do you know how lovely you are?
In the moonlight, in the moonlight of my heart

We're gonna build a home together
You and I for ever and ever
And we'll, we'll make babies on a beach
Under the stardust
And I'll hear your voice come through the door
A thousand times, maybe more
And I'll smile inside to know you're mine
Completely

And I'll wind up every day
Thinking about the way you make me feel
When your lips touch my lips
And I'd crawl inside a cave
Or live somewhere strange
As long as I'm with you
I have got what I need

We are gonna build a life together
You and I for ever and ever
And we'll, we'll make babies on the beach
Under the stardust
And I'll hear your voice come through the door
A thousand times, maybe more
And I'll smile inside to know you're mine
Completely mine

Kau

Karena Kau bagai Heroin, dulu ku berharap untuk mati saja saat kau pergi. Tapi aku mampu melewati banyak hal, banyak hal yang mampu membuatku melewati dari kecanduanku terhadapmu. Tapi mengapa aku masih gila ? kenapa aku masih saja kehilangan akal sehatku ? kenapa aku masih mengharapkanmu, masih mengharapkan kau kembali padaku.

Original by :Fatin Zulfa

Mereka Bilang "Dia Bukan yang Terbaik"

saya gatau harus mulai nulis darimana, kalian tau mati rasa ? ya mungkin saya mati rasa, saya mati rasa sama rasa sakit mati rasa sama rasa bahagia saya mati rasa untuk beberapa saat. Saya temukan kebahagiaan pada diriinya, saya bisa tertawa lepas, saya bisa menangis sejadi-jadinya, saya bisa marah, di dirinya saya temukan segalanya, dia mungkin bukan yang pertama, dan memang mungkin juga bukan yang terakhir, karena saya tidak mau berharap terlalu muluk-muluk, sesaat semua perasaan itu mati, karena 2 orang yang memang sangat berpengaruh di hidup saya, mereka menentang dengan alasan "dia bukan yang terbaik". 

saya mempertanyakan apakah yang terbaik selalu dipandang dari nilai materi ? apa barang mahal akan selalu bagus ? saya pun tidak munafik memang barang mahal akan lebih terjamin, tapi barang mahal ataupun tidak mereka won't last forever, nothing last forever, tapi berhubung mereka org yg sgt berpengaruh jadi saya tidak dapat berbuat apa2x, ibarat dulu pak habibie membiaarkan irian barat berpisah dengan Indonesia, gag ada yang bisa ngelakuin apa2x, walaupun hasilnya beliau mundur jadi presiden, kalau masalah saya gag akan bikin mereka jadi gag berpengaruh buat hidup saya which is impossible.

Saya bertanya sama dia, apa dia mau tetap sama ugly duck penuh masalah seperti saya ini atau bidadari-bidadari yang pasti akan ia dapatkan ketika lepas dari saya, tapi dia memilih tetap dengan ugly duck. Menurut saya dia tulus sama saya, karena dikasih pilihan enak pilih yang gag enak, saya kasihan sama dia, tapi saya bangga sama dia, karena hanya dia yang bisa buat saya begini, saya mungkin sudah tau akhirnya akan gimana, saya hanya mau menikmati proses yang ada, proses dimana saya merasa bahagia, 

jika akhirnya saya tidak akan bahagia dengan dia, saya berharap suatu saat saya dan dia dapat memperoleh kebahagiaan masing-masing.

SAYA SAYANG ANDA Y!

LOVE

LOVE

LOVE

LOVE

LOVE

LOVE

LOVE    

Actually what is LOVE ?

Do you really know what Love is ?
Do you believe in Love ?
Do you have Love ?

Actually here i will talk about Love in not general ways, here just love in my perspective, here just love base on Love with opposite sex which is Man or Woman.
This is Love in my perspective so here it goes

"Love is something that you feel when you want the person you love, to be happy, someone you want to grow old together, someone that make you feel safe around him/her, the place where you feel comfortable, someone that would share tears, laughter, happiness, sadness, sickness and everything even every little thing. Love is not physical or just about romance true love is about how we accept the way she/he was and DONT REALLY CARE about stuff that happen in the past and only care about how to make the future together"

 and this one i read it in twitter quote and i forget again hoho so sorry :p

"Love, we think about it, sing about it,dream about it and love sleeping worrying about it. When we dont know we have it we search for it, when we discover it we dont know how to do with it. When we have it we fears losing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain but we dont know which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define and impossible to live without."

22 october 2010

i can honestly say you've been on y mind since i woke up today, i look at your photograph and this memory come back to life and i dont mind cause i remember when you hug me i still feel it oh my body the time that i sang for you with no music played. i remember those simple things i remember till i cry, but the one thing i wish i forget the memory i wanna forget is goodbye.
i stay awake this night and play our song and my tears sing along. i pick up my phone and put it down cause i know im wasting my time , but i dont mind.suddenly my cellphone blown up with your ringtone i hate to see your message but i see it anyway and im surprise to hear you said that you miss me,you remember when we hug each other,you remember when i sang a song with no music played,you remember those simple things we talk and we laugh.But the one this you wish i forget the memory you wanna forget saying goodbye.

original song by miley cyrus

Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

MARCOEM

hey blove long time no post :) today i want to post about my besttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt :* we called us MARCOEM .
gue gamau ngepost tenntang marcoem itu apa,atau sejarah nya atau apalah.gue cuman mau bilang lewat post gue yang ini gue kangen banget sama kalian . kangen banget-bangetan gue selalu kesepian disini.kalo gue kesepian dibekasi gue pasti punya kalian.terutama ella sama entok yang emang sering kerumah gue kalo gue ada masalah atau apapun itu we definitely share a lot . i miss you all like hell . gue bener2x belom nemu temen atau gimana disini.tapi jelas banget deh beda banget.gue disini temenan juga sama banyak org . cuman ya gabisa aja gag ada juga yang kaya kalian .kalo pacar mah ibarat kata gabisa move on gue =.= gue nangis nih ;( beneran gue kangen bangetan . gue mau curhat gatau sama siapa . mau bercanda2x gatau ama siapa,mau berantem aja gag ada yang jadi bahan beranteman. semuanya komplit di marcoem . lo mau berantem bisa mau baikkan bisa mau bercanda bisa . gue kangen ngumpul dirumah cici.kangen nyai salam cium manja dr gue buat nyai ya ci hahaha . kangen 13 bangetan kangen ngobrol2x dikantin . selalu ber 12 eh 13 yah no matter what happen , gag ada motor cari tebengan sana sini , yang jelas tujuannya satu bisa main.mungkin gue emang gag sejauh bela di bengkulu.tapi kangennya mungkin sama aja. i cant share everything like i share with you girls . gue harap kita semua ntr pada sukses in the end . ketemu lagi bercanda2x bareng lagi . gue mau banget pulang tapi gue gabisa kuliah gue ngepet banget jadwalnya. dan ini geu ngetik sambil mati lampu .huuuu udahan yah kangen2xannya . :( babay love you all so much much much .. you are all my best girl :)

 

 

2 september 2010

things weren't go so well i felt terrible i felt there's something wrong i felt jdijfsdoijfsdoijfsdijdo could you imagine the felt that we knew that he would broke my heart ? the felt that i know that this relationship would ended and the fact that he would leave me alone ? i called him at september 2 2010 at 23:59 . he told me that he felt that this relationship would not gonna work out right again.he felt he couldn't had a long distance relationship.i didn't know it just the reason or it's true yeah i just start believing.He told me he love me so much but the situation it always the situation.every time he told me that he love me so much you know ? i couldn't stop crying the tears its like rain in the middle of dry season .It hurts i don't know even now i couldn't feel any feel for him.i love you my 22 and you know that,you know bimbi it just you who can make me felt really in love in this past year.but as usual i always love the wrong people ? my friend told me that 'nisa you always love the wrong people' hmm maybe but i don't feel i love wrong people it just destiny i guess there's always a risk,there's always a goodbye behind the hello.
here is his message

maafin aku yaaah,km baik2x yah disana.kalo cari cowo

yang bener,yang baik kaya aku hehe 

km jangan sering nangis lagi yaa,berlajar untuk jadi dewasa

jangan ngelawan orang tua,karena mereka tau yang terbaik

buat kamu

AKU SAYANG KAMU!!:) 

when i received his message you know what ? i couldnt stop crying.huhu but i finally can moving on i dont know if this is moving on or what,i can't feel anything, love or maybe i miss him.no, but i still can't let him go :( but there is one thing i always remember 

there is always a good behind a goodbye 

Bimbi Mahesa Putra

yes who is bimbi mahesa putra ? he is my boyfriend :) he was born at may 1 1992 yap,cuman beda satu hari sama gue.eh setahun satu hari tepatnya.he graduated from 22 senior high school jakarta,and now become a student in YAI university,in comunication degree. he is the first child from 2,he has sister name febri nur intan,he lives in east jakarta,and i dont know where exactly is haha cause i never been there hoho he loves playing music,especially drum,and he is a drummer in his band and once again i don't know whats the band,but in high school he had a band called money laundry.he loves to listen to music,he loves trash metal,he loves led zeppelin,he likes megan fox,cause he thinks megan fox is sexy,haha and yes i agree with him.he likes ayam kecap,he likes black,he likes eat so much but i don't know why he always that skinny -.- bbbbuuuut when in elementary school till junior high school he is so fat not that fat but fat hha i want to share what he looks like back then but i don't have his picture huhu he just cute haha hmm what again oke let's talk about his character,he is so ignorant,just don't care others feeling,he always think that everything is going to be just fine,he is so patient,he never mad at me,he never jealous mm maybe he jealous but he trusts me more than everything,and that's why i trust him so much,sometimes he can be so tempramental,he is kind,sometimes he can be so romantic,he is spontaneous and i love that,his thinking bout life is so mature.

we've been go out for like 2 months 6 days . i love him and he loves me too haha we've been going out from october 28 2009 and break up on i don't know im forget hhe then back together on june 22 2010 . hopefully it will long last :) i love him so much and im pretty sure that he loves me like i do .

Senang apa Sedih ?

heyo blogger gue galau haha yess gue bingung gue mesti seneng apa sedih =.= you know why ? gue kasih tau

SENANG

Saya senang karena my dearest boyf Bimbi Mahesa Putra was accepted in UNPAR  in LAW DEGREE ;D hehe . Gue sama dia ngira pngumumannya besok eh ternyata kata temen gue bang iki pngumumannya itu hari ini,dan gue gapake ngasih tau bimbi kalo pngumumannya hari ini gue buka sendiri itu sitenya haha and VOILAAAAAAAAAdia keterima . gue seneng jingkrak2x deh . hehe apalagi pasdia bilang semuanya juga karena gue :) THANK YOU FOR YOUR LOVE AND APPRICIATENESS

yeyeyee im so excited

SEDIH

Lah nis kenapa sedih ? huhu iya soalnya bimbi keterima,kok sedih ? harusnya seneng dong ? iyaaa gue seneng tapi kalo keterima gue sama dia pasti makin jauh , cuman jakarta bekasi aja susah ketemu,ini bandung bekasi apalagi dia kuliah -..- pasti makin sibuk,masya allah . gue mau nangis gue kangen banget . huuu cuman yah mau gimana gue harus dukung dia ini demi masa depan dia ;D i will always support you my boy . hmm ada lagi yang bikin gue sedih masya allah lg,gue nganggur --,-- bimbi bakalan malu gag yah kalo ditanya cewenya kuliah dimana , dia mesti jawab gimana ? dia malu gag yah ? ya allah.MAAF YA MBI INI BUKAN MAU AKU TAPI AKU GATAU GMN,mudah2xan kamu gag malu yah . soalnya i love you so much very much .

my 22 :)

Bersyukurlah

Tadi gue lagi liat2x notes hp gue dan gue liat tulisan gue yang tentang berita yang udah lumayan lama gue liat.
Gue lupa kapan pastinya gue liat ini berita di tv sama gosip.Gue ketawa liat si artis sensasional ini si persuk ini,katanya dia pengen operasi ina ini inu bahkan hampir pegen operasi virginity hmm,okelah emang itu haknya buat kaya gitu toh itu uang2xnya juga ya kan ? hmm cuman ya coba dia bisa sedikit buka mata dan buka hati,ngapain dia buang2x uang kaya gitu,toh dia udh cantik udah sexy juga yahkan.dan bisa kan dia terima kenyataan yaah syukuri apa yang udah lo punya :) gue tergerak hati buat nulis kaya gini karena gue liat berita ibu-ibu di maluku utara ngambilin sama nyaring ampas padi,buat dijadiin beras,buat mereka makan.Dari ampas beras yang dia dapet 7 liter mereka saring lagi sampai akhirnya cuman 1 liter,dan kalian tau ? 1 liter itu harus mereka bagiin satu sama lain sama beberapa keluarga lainnya.bayangin aja kalo ada 3 keluarga 1 LITER beras bagi 3 berapa ? masya allah,gue sampe yang inget lagi berita ini aja ngenes banget nulisnya,dan gue juga jadi mikir orang-orang negeri kita yang jadi relawan kaya di palestina atau dmn lah ,kenapa mereka gag jadi relawan dulu buat negara sendiri ? rela nyisihin sedikit aja buat mereka,coba mereka nyisihin Rp 1000 aja tiap WNI yang jumlah WNI sekarang udah sampe 234.2 juta orang,kaliin aja kan yah sama seribu udah berapa kan tuh ? banyak kan ? nah bisa deh ngasih beras buat mereka2x,dan kita juga gag akan miskin kok ngeluarin uang seribu . iyakan ?.Dan gara-gara baca ini gue jd sadar ya kalau kita makan jangan dibuang-buang syukurin apa yang kita punya,jangan banyak mengeluh,karena sesungguhnya masih ada banyak orang diluar sana yang lebih membutuhkan . 
SEMOGA BERMANFAAT :)

KEEP LOVING AND SHARING :)

MEIDINA NOOR ANNISA 

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I just made those picture, i got inspired by some picture i saw at tumblr cekidot yeupssss and its dedicated to my 22 BIMBI MAHESA PUTRA :)

love story

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Bimbi youre the smell before rain , and you're the blood in my veina

500 Days of Summer

Helloooooooo my bloggers i want to post a movie called 500 days of summer,i love this movie very much oke , this is sad and inspired me a thought about LOVE . And here it goes

PLOT
On January 8, Tom Hansen meets Summer Finn, the new assistant to his boss. Tom trained as an architect but works as a writer at a greeting card company in Los Angeles. Following a karaoke night, Tom's co-worker, McKenzie, lets slip that Tom is attracted to Summer. Over the next few months, Summer and Tom grow closer, despite Summer making it clear to Tom that she does not believe in true love, and does not want a boyfriend.
Tom shows Summer his favorite spot in the city, which looks out over a number of buildings he likes, although the view is spoiled by parking lots. After several months of dating, Tom gets into a fight with a guy chatting up Summer, and they have their first argument. On day 290, Summer and Tom split up after they see The Graduate, a film which Tom thinks shows true love. Tom does not take the break up well, and Tom's friends call his younger sister, Rachel, to calm him down.
Summer quits the greeting card company. Tom's boss moves him to the consolations department, as his depression is not suitable for happier events, especially when he writes a profane card reading "roses are red, violets are blue, fuck you whore." Months later, as Summer and Tom attend the wedding of a co-worker, they dance at the wedding and Summer catches the bouquet. They sit next to each other on the trip home and Summer invites Tom to a party at her apartment. Tom attends the party and sees that Summer is wearing an engagement ring. Upon seeing this, he leaves the party. Tom enters a deep depression, only leaving his apartment for alcohol and junk food. After a few days, he returns to work hungover and quits his job. He sets about re-applying himself to architecture, makes a list of firms, and begins to attend interviews.
On day 488, Summer sees Tom at his favorite spot in the city and they talk. Tom states his lack of understanding towards her actions, but ultimately wishes Summer well. Twelve days later, on Wednesday, May 23, he attends a job interview and meets a girl who is also applying for the same job. Before entering the interview, he makes a date to have coffee with her afterward. He asks her for her name, and she replies, "Autumn".

And these are some part from the movie

sometimes what we expect to happen doesnt match with reality

bedtime kiss

separated

everything looks good i guess

Relationships are messy and people's feelings get hurt

The only thing that can heal a broken heart is time.

actually, i disagree. i don’t believe that time heals all wounds. what i believe, is that only one can heal oneself. time is not the healer. you are the healer. and the people around you, encouraging you - we are the helpers. we support you, we comfort you, we do everything we can for you. but it all boils down to the fact that only you can bring about your own happiness by picking yourself up from where you’ve fallen.
time is just a factor. sure, with time, the pain will fade, but it is still there, and it will always be there, lingering. do you really think that when you are heartbroken, time will mend your heart, slowly but surely? no, no, nothing will change, unless you help yourself. after all, you cannot forget what you don’t want to forget. the only thing that can heal a broken heart? is yourself.

(via raindropsonredroses)

my CLBK ( Cinta Lama Belom Kelar )

hahaha ini kisah gue bersama Bimbi Mahesa Putra biasa dipanggil Mbe,kambing,bimbi,dan gue panggilnya mboooooo :) yes gue pertama kali jadian sama dia tanggal berapa yah 28 oktober 2009 kira2x,gue lupa juga gue jadian sama dia kira2x dua bulan lalu kita putus . haha dan habis itu gue masih intens berhubungan sama dia smsan telfonan dan saling curhat masing2x love life . habis dari dia gue gapernah kpikiran buat balik sama dia,gue pun jadian sama beberapa org ya ue gausah sebutin satu2x kali yah haha pokoknya gitulah,lalu lalu pas yang terakhir kalinya gue pacaran,hubungan gue sama bimbi makin intens yaaaaa ibaratnya kaya PDKT ulang kali yah oke whatever deh yah.nah gue juga yaemang masih sayang sama dia jadi yaudah apa salahnya gue deket . dan guenya jugagapernah kpikiran buat balikan sama dia huhuhu dan pada saat gue single okeeeeee i feel deeply in love with my bimbo , yaudah singkatnya aja akhirnya gue sama dia kembaliii pas tanggal 22 juni 2010 jam 22.22 bagusa yayayaya ;D . yaudah deeeeeehhh gue masih jaidan kok sampe sekrang haha nah yah tap gue pacaran sama dia mesti ekstra saar meeennn . why ? because dia itu cuek banget dan yah never take too serious in everything -,- yaaa yasudalah gue mah selaw ajaaaa haha walau awalnya gue setres , tapi yaaahhh mnurut gue mah yaah YOU HAVE TO SERIOUS IN A RELATIONSHIP BUT DON'T TAKE TOO DEEP ON IT . because if you already give him everything and when he left you, you have nothing to left .