Ironic

Here is a story about a girl, who love and hurt too much.
She loves him too much, though he hurts her
She loves him too much, she keeps waiting
She loves him too much, she never know how to stop
She loves him too much, she doesn't care about the risk
She loves him too much, she hurts the one who love her
She loves him too much, she never care that she's being used
She loves him too much, she always pray
She loves him too much, she never give up on her feeling
She loves him too much, though it hurtful she keeps happy
She loves him too much, she doesn't even care how he destroy her routine
She loves him too much, that he thank god he can love someone this much
She loves him too much, she sacrifices her life

HIPPI HAPPI HIPPI

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MUCH LOVE!

Secarik Lirik, Semesta Makna

Oke sudah lama sekali saya tidak memposting, i don't know i've been busy, not quite sure what i meant by busy hha it's just an excuse maybe, sorry blove. Daritadi saya menghabiskan waktu saya mendengarkan lagu, menyanyi keras-keras sebagai salah satu pengganti tugas saya reading out loud, because i find it quite boring so i just start to sing out loud, dan ada yang menggelitik saya dari beberapa lagu yang dengan sumbangnya saya nyanyikan haha saya sebenernya udah tau lagu Fix You by Coldplay udah lama, tapi saya gapernah pahamin banget artinya, intinya mungkin saya terlalu terbawa galau sama suasana dan melodi lagunya, that i never pay really attention to the lyric, sesungguhnya lagunya ini sangat membangun, dan justru bikin semangat, every sentence has big meaning, and my favorite part is, "But if you never try You'll never know, just what you're worth" sesungguhnya kalimat tadi bener-bener means the world to me, kaya nampar saya, bikin saya sadar saya itu berharga, saya itu gag pantas ibarat kata sedihin, nangisin sesuatu yang emang gag sebanding sama saya, gag sebanding sama what i've been trough.

          Coba kalian pahamin betapa berharganya diri kalian, coba pahamin how much you mean the world to everyone surround you, coba buat sadar bahwa kita emang harus percaya sama diri kita sendiri. Sadarkah kalian selama ini kalian suka ngeremehin diri sendiri ? atau suka ninggiin diri sendiri hanya karena sejujurnya you always feel insecure. Saya jujur aja suka feeling insecure, sering banget apalagi didalam lingkungan baru, orang-orang baru, makanya saya suka bercanda-bercanda meninggikan diri sendiri, hanya untuk make sure that i feel secure enough. Lagi-lagi lagu Fix you, menyadarkan saya, lewat liriknya "Lights will guide you home, and i will try to fix you" There is always a person that always try to fix you, it just you never see it, try to open every eyes in your body, open your heart, mind, soul, let them guide you to the light, let them guide you to Allah, and he will fix you. 

          Satu lagi lirik yang bener-bener nampar saya lagi, udah bukan menggelitik lagi, "When you're too in love to let it go" "When you love someone but it goes to waste" AHA! i've been there A LOT! not once, twice, but A LOT! jadi, ketika kamu larut dalam cinta, larut dalam kesedihan dibuang cinta, percayalah masih banyak cinta yang lain, karena sesungguhnya cinta memberikan kebahagiaan, sesunguhnya seseorang yang meninggalkanmu bukan jodohmu, simpel saja. Ketika kamu dibuang cinta, ketika kamu membuang cinta pasti akan datang cinta yang lain, cinta yang benar-benar untukmu, cinta yang memang jodohmu, jadi jangan sia-siakan waktumu, hidupmu, bersedih, bermuram, hanya karena cinta, karena sesungguhnya itu bukan cinta, itu hanya keegoisan kita untuk memiliki seseorang yang belum tentu akan menjadi milik kita.

Sekian celotehan saya malam hari ini.

PELUKCIUMHANGAT 

Meidina N Annisa XXXO

Dear you (i)

Seandainya aja aku punya keberanian untuk ngubungin km duluan, untuk sms atau telepon km duluan. Aku pasti gag akan nulis, gag akan curhat disini. Aku sebenernya bukan gaberani, bukan juga takut kalau nantinya km gag bales atau aku jd sakit hati lagi. Semuanya karena aku terlanjur tertelan harga diri. Harga diri aku terlalu besar untuk memberanikan untuk sekedar mengetik 'hai' . Ahh seandainya aku berani menelpon mu cuman untuk bilang, aku menunggumu, aku selalu menunggumu.

Miris rasanya jika tiba-tiba aku tersadar, banyak yang mengejarku, ada pula yg menungguku. Tapi ntah kenapa aku hanya mengejar dan menunggu yang tidak mengejar atau menungguku?
Sudah menjadi kebiasaanku sekarang, jika terlanjur menyayangi aku tak membuka hati, ntah susah atau memang aku tak mau.

Dear you, seaundainya km buka nomer mu yang satunya, nomer yang kau beli untuk menghubungiku. Kau pasti tau betapa aku sayang padamu, bagaimana aku menunggumu.

Dear you, aku tak bisa apa-apa my pride has swallow me, so aku hanya bisa menunggumu dalam diam :') dalam ketidak pastian.

Dear You (ii)

I've had a lot of boyfriends in my life, i've been in love with a lot of people, but it never felt this way. Never not once, have i felt the way about you as i felt about the other guys i've been with. It feels like i can never love someone the way i love you.
Its not like i dont think i can find another guy, in fact i might found someone better than you. But the truth is i dont want that. I want YOU. I know its weird, but i want that stupid fight and conversation with you. I want everynight im waiting you to call me, i miss the way you wake me up when i fall asleep in your car, i want the pain of waiting you everyday. As long as its from you, its alright. Because i love you. And i know if i found another guy, who's just like you, both personality and looks, i still wouldnt be able to love that guy the samw way i love you :)

Ma-RR-ied

see my previous post ? yup, im in love immediately just by listening to the first lyric, and its so simple yet its so beautiful. I cant help it, my tears rolling down, and its my first time listened to a song that's so beautiful, not sad and made me cried. This song is making me wanna get married even moooore. AAAAAAA and i saw the video cover is about wedding, and uuuu even making me cried. You know because of my relationship before and always ended up me Broken Hearted, i'm like giving up for whole those Boyfriemd things, i even ask my mother to setting me up, oke it just me being so pathetic, but really im so desperate ended up broken heart and cry. Someday i just want to meet my soulmate, and get married and live happily ever after. I'm done with all those kind of relationship that just looking for pleasure and for those who just seek for pleasure, just stay away from me, and i mean it really! and thank you for those who love me. and still love me :")
I don't know why i love those guys who hurted me and i cant love them that love me? i don't know its fair i guess i hurt them by not loving them and they hurt me by..... you know right ? Life is like mirror you do something bad to a person and someday you will get bad things in return and i hate to call it KARMA, i don't know why. But the best thing you could do to the people who hurt you is wishing the the best, wishing them to be happy and forgive them, if you can't forgive, how you can really forget? me, personally hate to know the fact that i still running around in circle of the past. im like in labyrin i couldnt find my way to out unless i forgive, so i forgive them and i have my way out, and hopefully i can find someone that pick me up in the end of the labyrin.
Hey, im no longer a pleasure seeker like i used to be, if im still that kind of person, i wouldn't writing about all of this. i'll be playing with my boyfriend since its saturday night. Im basically single but i don't know im starting to enjoy it, because you know im looking for serious relationship, though im only 19 and it still 3 months again hahaa
Because of my environment at my college im like growing up faster haha my friends are litteraly got engaged and 3 of them are married, and listening to The wedding song by Angus & Julia Stone its like aaaarrrrgghhhhhhhhh. So hopefully i can found my soulmate, Hey my future husband what are you doing now ? Im writting about you know :)

The Wedding Song by Angus & Julia Stone

We are gonna build a life together
You and I for ever and ever
And we'll, we'll make babies on the beach
Under the stardust
And I'll hear your voice come through the door
A thousand times, maybe more
And I'll smile inside to know you're mine
Completely

Do you know how lovely you are?
In the starlight, in the starlight of my heart
Do you know how lovely you are?
In the moonlight, in the moonlight of my heart

We're gonna build a home together
You and I for ever and ever
And we'll, we'll make babies on a beach
Under the stardust
And I'll hear your voice come through the door
A thousand times, maybe more
And I'll smile inside to know you're mine
Completely

And I'll wind up every day
Thinking about the way you make me feel
When your lips touch my lips
And I'd crawl inside a cave
Or live somewhere strange
As long as I'm with you
I have got what I need

We are gonna build a life together
You and I for ever and ever
And we'll, we'll make babies on the beach
Under the stardust
And I'll hear your voice come through the door
A thousand times, maybe more
And I'll smile inside to know you're mine
Completely mine